My Thoughts...

I am thinking…

I saw true love between two people. There have no mansion to come to, no fancy car to ride in, no money to spend on trips around the world or shopping in the most high end shops. But they have is a love for each other. An understanding between the two of them that makes them so in sync with one another. In their little house with no tap water or electricity, with their four young children I have never seen such happiness. And what I appreciated out of all that was their warmth, generosity and genuineness. And I even got sound advice. Me with my fancy job and all the comforts I was humbled and began to appreciate love in a different light.

My Thoughts...

I am thinking…

You are the one that got away…Katy Perry’s song comes to mind…no I am actually listening to it, dedicating it to you, to us, wishing I did not have to say you are the one that got away. I saw you yesterday and we spoke after almost a year, it was painful coz at that moment I saw clearly what I had lost, what I had let go. In my fickle mind I thought I no longer wanted you, but my heart still needs you. It hurts I can never have you coz I know I hurt you and I’m sorry.  I no longer have the right to tell you that I love you, but I do love you.  I forgot to say it, but I never forget to feel it. It’s a love I’ll always carry with me. It’s to remind me about ‘The one that got away’.

My thoughts...

I am thinking…

Is it so hard for a man to come up and say gal I like you, can we hang? Do we seem like scary she-devils with a fiery pitch fork? Why go around in circles trying to find out if I’ll commit to you, if I’m in it for the long haul…WTF? Long haul of what I have not heard the question? How can I commit to a question I haven’t been asked. Men a girl just loves a traditional straight forward questions like the ones I got asked in grade school, ”Pamela I like you, can you be my girl” that was the sweetest any man has ever said to me.. Now that they are grown up they have forgotten the sweet ways.

My Thoughts...

I am thinking…

I’m looking forward to meeting you later in the evening. I get home I put on some music, I am in the mood for some loving, I run a bath, you say you will be in town in the next hour. I have all the time to get ready. I spray my favorite scent, paint my toes. I have waxed and trimmed all the places that need to be taken care of. I am ready. I get a message, you are now in town, you ask where I am at, and I tell you I am home. I can’t wait, this is it. I have been waiting for this for quite a while now and today all I could think of was this time we were to have together… then the bombshell drops….’see you tomorrow then’….WTF? What has just happened? Can someone tell me what’s going on? The perfect evening goes puff right in front of me and I don’t even know what happened... Yep that’s your typical male species. Dates are canceled without notice or reason and you are left all high and dry. Yet you always complain that I don’t make time for you. And when I make the initiative you drop me like a hot potato. I am still reeling from laughter and to some extent disappointment because yes I had made all these preparations just for you. And what I need to know is what spooked you?

My thoughts...

I am thinking…

 Chocolate….

And what better way than indulge in a chocolate fondue. Take out the fondue pot

Ingredients

6 ounce(s) semisweet chocolate, coarsely chopped

 1/4 cup(s) half-and-half or light cream

1 tablespoon(s) flavored liqueur such as cherry, orange, coffee, or raspberry, optional

 1/2 teaspoon(s) vanilla extract

 Fruit such as whole strawberries or chunks of banana, pineapple, or pear

 1/2 cup(s) almonds, toasted and finely chopped (optional)

Directions

1.In heavy 1-quart saucepan or fondue pot, melt chocolate with half-and-half over low heat until mixture is smooth, stirring frequently. Stir in liqueur and vanilla; keep sauce warm.

2.To serve, arrange fruit on large platter. Spoon fondue into small bowl if you like. Place nuts in another small bowl. With toothpick, dip fruit into fondue, then into almonds if you like.

My thoughts...

I am thinking…..

I guess I always pictured it differently or I am still wearing rose tinted sunglasses, but I always thought that the day some handsome well accomplished man is going to propose to me will be earth shattering mind blowing whirlwind romance kind of proposal…lol. Yes in my mind I picture I see a fairy tale I see bended knees serenades in the back ground diamond ring and a proposal that gives an awwww moment. Then I stop and think does it happen like that? Do people still do that or does romance and fantasy still exist? How do one get the courage to take that first step and say yes this is the person I want to spend the rest of my life with and yes I am willing to make a fool over myself and still get this man/woman of my dreams? It’s still is a mystery to me one I need to find a revelation to soon because I need to also make a fool of myself for some one too.

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